Months ago, I found myself standing in “The Deep End” since I wasn’t able to land any internship before graduating this year. The situation was exactly the same as how they described in the book, I needed to grow more skills, my confidence, and my portfolio of successful work, I needed to challenge myself with bigger works, projects, complex tasks, and teams, etc. The YouTube algorithm even made my situation worse by showing people about my age are “better” coders than me in my opinion. I was afraid that I did not do “enough”.
Currently, what I really felt at that time was envious, seeing people better than me virtually is rough but seeing people who I know landed works while I carried them through classes is overwhelming. My resume, my ability, my confidence, all of them were kind of irrelevant at that point. I created an invisible time limit for myself to be successful, to this point, I still think there are pros and cons to doing it, the risk could be high but I take it.
Later, exactly in how they advise the action, I should instead jump into working on projects that I did not do to create a time limit for it, I’m willing to take more work than anyone in the team and fulfill my responsibilities to not only build my portfolio but also my skills and my confidence. Then, after a while, I will analyze my set of skills fit to what role in the industry and pick the right opportunity based on it.
Besides, when this post is online, I’m currently handling an internship and a capstone project in which I volunteered to be the Scrum master that instead does not make me feel overwhelmed but motivated, as I am learning new materials every day.
In conclusion, it likes how The Deep End was described in vol. 15 of “Diary of the Wimpy Kid: The Deep End”, which follows Greg Heffley’s summer story, a dramatic summer yielded great memories, things could be tough initially, but if I keep continuing on this track, hopefully, the result will be what I aimed.
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