Ive grown to have struggled with my communication skills. I would propose that it comes from feelings of inadequacy. Growing up I spoke solely Khmer at home and going into school there was a short time of transition from one language to another. Fast-forward a decade or two the tides have turned, and I now struggle with Khmer. What I recognize is the common factor within developing language and communication is one’s ability to write in each language. For one key factor as introduced in the Record What You Learn pattern, it says “You should not also underestimate the power of writing itself….You can lose your larger sense of purpose. But writing lets you step back and think through a problem. Even the angriest rant forces the writer to achieve a degree of thoughtfulness.” During my earlier stages of life, I don’t think I would ever have been able to understand this idea so much so that it would have led me to loathe writing in its entirety.
Though, as a graduating student, like many things, I have learned to love and develop a healthier relationship with things that may feel adverse. Like an opposing force school has been, I have learned to pull rather push against such a struggle. As I begin to make a shift, I wish to utilize writing more in any way that would serve me. As of now I see writing as a way to develop my language skills both natural language and coding/computer language, continue to use it as a way to develop ideas, and have it be part of my lifelong existence.
More specifically writing such as the writing in this blog has been an empowering way to process thinking and how to think. Of the many ideas that this blog has helped me develop, with the subject matter being the patterns in the reading, I’m learning to reflect on myself and record those reflections in way that crafts my “larger sense of purpose”. For example, recognizing that I like talking up all these ideas but never act on them, and starting to transition into learning how to take action and start making these ideas come true. The role in which writing has played has served as an oath to grow to my higher self, a mastered self. If I am true to myself these writings must be treated as a nursery to my ideas and the visions of the future that I have.
It is not only myself that I serve, but also for those that may have struggled as I did.